I run every morning. I have a nice playlist that keeps me going and great back-roads that encourage me to go further every day. But this morning, I ran in silence. The world is too loud for me to simply add to the noise. Hate, violence, division, injustice, misunderstanding; it’s all too loud. I normally keep to myself with opinions about social and political issues. I do this because I don’t like to start fights; I don’t always have an opinion; and typically I don’t have a solution. But as I ran in the silence this morning, God put a prayer on my heart. It seems as if I don’t have much more to offer at the moment. So despite the pain in my gut for adding to the noise, I will follow the call to share what I can offer.
I am terrified to wake up.
Every day brings another tragedy, the next more confusing and heartbreaking than the one before.
I hurt for the families and friends of the black community being wrongfully shot and beaten by police.
I hurt for the families and friends of the police officers gunned down at a peaceful protest.
I hurt for my family and friends whose only response to this pain is passive-aggressive social media posts and light dinner conversation.
In my young, white, female, upper-middle class perspective, it is impossible for me to begin to understand.
I am not scared to be stopped by the police. I am not scared to drive my car. I am not scared to go to a convenience store. I am not scared to go to work. I am not scared to serve my community. I am not scared of being killed today.
But I am scared of sitting back to watch injustice and violence rule the world You created.
So I pray for the strength, the guidance, and the heart to make this prayer more than a prayer.
I pray that I speak up even when I do not have words, I act even when I am hesitant, and I love without exception even when I live in a world that does not.
For peace and love, safety and courage, and liberty and justice for ALL, amen.
Praying with you as we are all God’s children
Beautiful and poignant prayer, Kelly!