Sacred Space

I’m sitting in my living room with the sun beaming through the corner windows, filled with joy and confidence. Tomorrow I’m going in for “top surgery” (more technically, a double mastectomy as a form of gender-affirming healthcare to treat dysphoria) – and I could not be more excited! Processing with my therapist this morning, I…

On Identity

Last week, I had the chance to hang out with one of my favorite artists, Scott Erickson. While talking about art and spirituality and becoming, Scott said “but thank God we didn’t become the person we thought we wanted to be but are becoming a person we never saw coming.” That quote has never felt…

2025: The Year of Growth

It’s probably no accident that I chose the word “grow” for 2025 and find myself not even a week in, having to grow in my comfort with being a week late on taking the time to write this out. So I guess, in some ways, I’ve achieved my goal for the year, so I can…

Voice

It had already been just a bonkers, backwards day. It took 40 minutes to get the loaner car to drop off our newly purchased car to have a few things fixed. I got to work and the power immediately went off, meaning I had to do my 2 hour zoom interview about preaching from my…

Jan 31 / Feb 1

I can distinctly remember Feb. 1, 2023. I had convinced myself the call couldn’t come tonight. There hadn’t been enough time for reflection and discernment. Really, I was telling myself there hadn’t been enough time for them to call and offer the position to the other candidate. After all, that had happened 8 times before.…

Dirty/Dusty Hands

Ash Wednesday in the hospital is a humbling experience. Touching the face of a dying person and telling them they are dust.   Smudging ash on the hand of someone waiting to see if their loved one will ever wake up again. Reminding nurses and doctors and custodians that their presence is sacred. Watching the…

When titles and words are hard…

Katie and I have started a ridiculously funny and painfully valid holiday tradition for our family. It started the year we got married (2020). Between canceled graduations, delayed wedding plans, goodbye-less moves, and the start of a global pandemic, we were inspired by a Facebook ad to get a dumpster fire ornament for 2020. A…

Thank God When Things Don’t Fit

Recently, I’ve had this song stuck in my head. I love and relate so deeply to the lyrics. A significant part of my coming out journey has been more than just acknowledging who and how I love, but also how I understand my identity as a queer lady with more “masculine” gender expression. I’m a…

Public Restrooms

Without fail, every time I’m at an airport, someone attempts to correct me about the restroom I’m trying to enter. It’s never kind. There’s never a moment for consideration before accusation. Just blatant allegations that I am a predator based on my appearance and my need to use the bathroom. I’ve had this experience with…

An Offering

It’s completely unexpected, but I’m living my best life right now. Carpooling with my wife to work where I help sweet kids with special needs all day, breathing well and breathing deeply for the first time in a long time. Doing what I can to receive what life has to OFFER (2022’s resolution word). Offering…

Hindsight 2021

*Important announcement at the end  Every new year I do a resolution word instead of targeted goals. I never know fully what it will mean and every year it challenges me in ways I couldn’t have expected.  2021 – hold fast.  January 4, 2021 I wrote: Hold fast to truth. Hold fast to joy. Hold…

Personal Information Form

The PC(USA) has a helpful job website where you can see churches seeking new pastors and pastors seeking new churches. The system works by each entity submitting information forms – ministry information forms for churches and personal information forms for pastors. You’ve probably noticed I haven’t written anything here since January, so you can probably…

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